MAN VS METH

Before we go deeper into our context, here’s  a gentle reminder from the author. Meth (methyl-amphentamine) is not a recreational drug and can cause addiction. Without a proper guidance and self-actualization, meth can be the root cause which lead to morale decendant and social problem in society. Author will take no liabilty from any action for the entire content of this blog. You are responsible for all your action.

1. CHILL RESPONSIBLY

You are the only person on Earth that really understand yourself thoroughly, so you know  your limitation. We live in a country where meth is forbid by law, do not get busted. To avoid get caught, do not carry “substance” when u are on the move. Prior to your session, set a goal or target which you’re going to achieve when u chilling.

2. MERCY YOUR G.I.T (GASTRO-INSTESTINAL TRACK)

Drink more water. Fluid loss due to excessive sweating and urinating, this is because meth increases your body temperature slightly higher than normal. As we know, meth load your body with danger alerts which triggers the formation of adrenaline, Adrenaline causes sweating to prepares your body to face the danger (false danger alert). Meth constrict your blood vessel which reduce the blood flow to every organs in your body. Less blood means less work, less work means less production (ex: saliva, gastric juice), less production  means less digestion, Malfunctioning of digestive track can lead to more severe condition such Anemia, Hypokalemia as resulted from malnutrition. Take supplement like multivitamins and ascorbic acid to boost your immune system and general health. Don't skip your mealtime. Prolonged usage of meth can cause severe body weight loss (which later lead to inferior body self image), gastritis, stomach acid regurgitation and ulcerative of the digestive track.

3.MIND WHAT YOU INHALE
The route of entry for meth is by inhalation, method called as "chase the dragon". It is absorbed by the lungs in the form of smoke, dissolved in alveoli later will be carried by blood to the brain. The main vital organ involve here is the brain, the centre of the human body that control all of our activities. Therefore, mind what you inhale because certain chemicals enters may altered the brain to function properly. Let's look into our context of chilling, the probability to inhale the butanol gas from the lighter, carbon monoxide from the sooth produced by incomplete combustion and the salicate debris from the glass rod used.

THE SECRET BRIDGE AND THE FOUR WALLS MELANCHOLY

We're urbanite and we live on our wildest dream. We're those dreamers who have their option widely opened. We're those swingers and we're constantly waiting for something better to walk-in. But would we ever know it even it might just came? We didn't, ain't? It might be nice to stop circling. It might be better to stop equating sex with a handshake..and it might be great to have it mean something. Don't u think?

Subtle exorcism of the secret bridge and the sacred of four walls, by Mohd Yusri Hafizi Yusoff. December 26, 2015. Wangsa Maju.

Hafiz Another Night

 That another dawn

Yawning.
 This candle is burning.
How long will you stay?
Yawn again.

Dwelling in my sleepless tremors

 Flawed beautifully

Sin differently.

   In solitude he look at life

His thoughts strangled

 Mind is suffocating.

Enough!
Does enough equate satisfy?
0.5 to one solid gram,
Does enough now means adequate? 

Tonight, he flee.

Going to the land of Euphoria.
And he will never come back again.
Dirty reality sucks..

I ain’t even  tryin’ to preach u

By sharing thoughts here

Hope to find a little peace in mind

Mohd Yusri Hafizi Bin Yusoff 

The Luckiest Man on Earth

Assalamualaikum.
May the peace and blessing of Allah be upon us..

Alhamdulillah, all praises to Allah. Something to ponder, a rhetoric question tho, to feed an empty soul. Out of many things around us, why did Allah created us as human? Instead of human, He could have just created us as a tomato? or brocolli perhaps? or it can be a guacamole? Or to something far from green, like a cow? or I can be a cat! But Allah had privileged us to be human being like we are today..

It is beautiful to see people are coming back to the Deen. Allah could have just left people misguided and just let them lost further down in astray. Instead of giving in, Allah has granted 'em the nur that enlightened their way in this truth quest of life. 

Allah works in his mysterious way, we should never question his decision. Hidayah belongs to Him, and he granted to whom he wanted. 

And Yet..I'm Still Frowning

Assalamualaikum wrt.

I was at the traffic light. It was red so naturally my car was stationery. Then I saw the man on the motorbike, a few meters in front of me came down from his bike.

I was curious. I mean, why would a man come down from his bike in the middle of the road, right?

So I watched him.

To my amazement, he bent down and picked up something. I squinted my eyes. It was a can of drink.

Yes, a can of drink.

And he walked a few meters and bent again. And again. And again. And again.

In his hands now I saw a couple of cans of drink. Empty cans.

Then maybe realizing some people are watching, he looked up at the cars direction and smiled.

Ya Allah.. my heart melted.

Such is his trial in life.

That perhaps money and finance is a challenge for him. Economic survival requires him to pick up the cans by the streets so he could sell them to the recycle centers.

 So that  he could eat. Perhaps pay his petrol. Maybe buy some medicines.

And he still could smile.

Smiling away.

And I was there, sitting in a cozy air-conditioned car, with an upside-down smile and heart that is heavy.

Ya Allah... Forgive me..

As I took a deep breathe, I thank Allah for this simple reminder He sent my way.

I am thankful for all the You have given me, blessed me and showered me with, my Lord.

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulilah.

How Does Meth Acts to Your Body?

Methaphentamine  (read:methyl +amphentamine) merupakan sejenis recrecational drugs commonly use by students espc yg berada kat IPT , but recently I’ve come to know that meth is also became another ‘drug of choice’ among our school children. *sounds terrified huh?* This is a real challenge that our govt has to tackle from the root cause of it in creating a safer environment for our future generation to grow. Selain drp isu super duper boros habit by jibby’s wife spending all the rakyat’s money, this issue also should be brought into spotlight to sit and discuss to find the solution. There are few local terms orang guna pakai utk refer to this bendalah but these are few contoh that were common used in our society, ex: coutut, batu, bebong, ais baby. chem, cf, chill, etc.

Badan kita bertindak balas dengan crystal meth ni hampir sama seperti keadaan badan kita response kepada bahaya. Chemical from the meth stimulates the body to load with adrenaline, seperti yg kita tahu adrenaline adalah sejenis hormon which gives a super charge strength and endurance for our body so it can deal with dangers and injuries. Any substance that alter the person the way of thinking, feeling and what they see, it must first to cross the blood brain barrier (BBB) for example ubat ubatan psychoactive spt valium, the action is qiute similar mcm crystal meth.*BBB ni function dia nak protect brain from germs dan bertindak sbg gateway access to the central nervous system (CNS)* Jangan kompius sbb BBB xlah kuat bukan mcm JPJ roadbloack pon, it’s just a sleeve like filter of tightly packed fat cell yg embedded pada tiny blood vessel sbelom it reaches the brain. Bile chem enters our body (through smoke enters the lungs, dissolve in alveoli then enters the blood, blood transpoted to the heart then it was pumped up  to the brain) this process take place dalam less than 15 saat jer. Fast enough? God is great right. So mendalah ape yg ade di seberang sana BBB? it's a farm to Millions or trillions of neurons. Mendalah ape plak neurons ni? Sudah..haha neurons adalah sejenis sel saraf. Tugas neurons adalah utk produce, store up and release neurotransmitter. Once chem tadi dah cross BBB, neurons akan absorbs dan ter-soaked dengan chem, ini menyebabkan these neurotransmitters ditolak keluar dari neurons dan diganti dengan chem yg kita sedut tadi. Hahaha agk kuang ajor disitu dah la menceroboh, halau plak tuan rumah? Chem dlm batu tu serupa dan bertindak same sebijik mcm neurotransmitters yg dah kene halau tadi.*process ini berulang selagi kita sedut chem masok, chem yg dah ade dlm neurons td akn di kicked out ke dlm bloodstream* Neurotransmitters (chem pon acted the same) ni kemudian di released into the bloodstream dan mula bagi info kat kite punye badan utk bertindak. Tugas neurotransmitters adalah utk hantar some sort of “warning/emergency alert” to our kidney, GIT, lungs and to the glands that made our hormone.

Bercakap pasal hormone ni plak, neurotransmitter arahkan glands to produce large amount of hormone  seperti: Dopamine – gives a sense of reward or pleasere. Too little Dopamine boleh menyebabkan parlysis atau parkinson-like disease meanwhile too much Dopamine plak bleh menyebabkan seseorang tu paranoid contoh macam dengar suara atau get twisted thought. Pernah rase x? Hehe. Serotonin – Job dia adalah utk induce tido dan juga diguna dlm sensory perception badan. It also play a role in depession, sex and regulating body temperature. Kebanyakan emotional disorder has something to do with Serotonin sperti phobia, schizophrenia, or OCD. Too much serotonin dlm badan juga boleh delay(or almost impossible)utk seseorang itu mencapai orgasm. Norepinephrine – to increase alertness and concentration. It also membantu to ease the pain and regulating kite pnye blood pressure. Norepinephrine juga berperanan utk triggered basic instinct seperti hunger, sex and thirst. These are all include dlm kite punye nervous system as what we know job utama nervous system is to channel communication from our brain to the entire body system (dan sebaliknya), so bile kita hisap batu, our nervous system will shift into high gear mode, senang citer we actually “floods” the body with load of emergencies or danger alert messages. Common body responses to danger includes: pupil gets larger to let in more light, hair stand on end (mcm meremang bulu roma tapi bukan meremang), blood vessel akan constrict, and body temperature akan increase.


Habes part CNS, so we move our concern to Dental and Oral part. Chem causes the blood vessel to constrict (dah mention di atas) termasuklah vessel yg supply blood to the mouth and oral tissue to shrink up. This causes the mouth to dry up due to less saliva produce. Saliva neutralizes acids in the mouth, and less saliva means more acids. Acids build up and eat all mineral yang ade pada enamel gigi dan menyebabkan lobang. Untreatred lobang (cavities) may lead to tooth decay. Jadi gunalah Colgate Total selalu haha. Let’s see how does our liver react to chem pulak, seperti yg kita tau liver ni berkerjasama dgn kidney utk clear blood drp drugs and poison that might otherwise build up in the body. Liver ni akn break down meth to a simpler chemical molecules so that it can be excreted out. Concern dia bile dah hisap batu, liver ni akan terlalu byk tugas menyebabkan chem and other substaces kat dlm badan kita terpaksa bersaing utk di proses. Bile dah delayed processing ni chem build up boleh lead to toxicity and this is f*cking dangerous as it can cause fatalities. Scary huh? so quit. haha

Then we take a view dekat kidney, chem causes the blood flow to kidney kita berkurang due to vessel constriction tadi. Less blood means less work, kidney will produce less urine. Toxic waste xleh keluar so badan akan recycle balik msok ke bloodstream. Once toxic ni dah samapi brain, itu yang menyebabkan confusion and headache. Kalau urine dah terkumpul dalam bladder, urine retention bleh sebabkan infection. Then the digestive system (GIT) plak, chem akan slower down kita punye GIT main role which is digestion dengan memperlahankan/stop tros movement peristalsis normally does by the tract.

Sekian info, haha terima kasih sebab sudi membaca artikel ini. So, kalau anda salah sorg pengguna, try to reduce then to stop. It causes more harms than good, this is an experience based advice from deep inside my heart. Gituuu.

Assalamualaikum wrt.

Bi'idznillah, it gets better

The future is getting better, bi'idznillah.

In the name of Allah the most merciful and the most beneficent. May the peace and blessing be with all of us. Ameen.

Hey awk, igt x mlm mse awk jumpe sy ngn Farid kt PWTC aritu? Maaf, mungkin cara kita berkenalan adalah salah. But deep inside me saying that there's something more, it's not just a usual 'bumped into' like what u have in ur Badoo. We met for reason of course! I knew ur story, hey, I felt a lil dissaponted for what u did in ur past. But i'm not going to judge u, I'll walk with u.

Kusambut tanganmu di lembayung senja
Lukisan sejarah mengukir kulitmu
Mungkinkah terlewat pertemuan kali ini?
- Amuk, Hakikat.

I am willing to be your guardian angel, not to fix u but to guide..and not to harm u but to protect. Forget the pain in ur past, let's think our future.

If... u are willing to change.
But u seems not...hurmm..how to say this?
Give me answer.

Kalaulah ku dapat menyeru waktu dulu, kuhias semula ia untukmu.
Kupimpin tanganmu ke zaman indah syahdu,
Tidaklah kau seperti hari ini..
- Hakikat

Forgive People As You Expected Allah To Forgive You

Forgive People As You Expected Allah To Forgive You.

In the name of Allah the most merciful and the most beneficent. May the peace and His blessing be upon u, ameen. 

I Told Allah A lot About You, Then I Cried.

"And Allah knows, while you know not"

Redha itu nampak  mudah. Kan? Nak ikhlas itu sungguh pahit. Tapi pahitkan ubat paling mujarab.. 

Ya allah help me forgive when everything inside me tells me not to.Help me let go when my heart is so wounded that I feel it’s breaking.Open my eyes to things that can heal me, things that can comfort me and make me stronger. 

Hold my hand and let me cry on Your shoulder. Hug me for a while.Take me to places I’ve never been, let me stand on the highest mountain,so I can see how foolish I am for clinging to my anger. 

 Forgive people as you expected Allah to forgive you.

I have learned that sometimes "Sorry" is not enough. Sometimes you actually have to change. 

Help me love the people who hurt me as You love us all, although we hurt You every day by our words, thoughts and actions. 

"And whosoever repents and does righteous good deeds; then verily, he repents towards Allah with true repentance”

[al-Furqaan 25:70-71] 

Give me the inner strength to heal and not to break, to comfort and not to destroy, to repay good for evil and love for hatred.

Allahu..You know everything, the truth and what actually i faced. Please, ease everything. Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin.

I Told Allah A Lot About You..Then I Cried.

In the name of Allah the most merciful and the most beneficent. May the peace and His bless be with u, ameen. 

On a wet December night, on a train board for nowhere.

Tears were in the air tonight.

I was like a solitude soldier, 

Fighting addiction 

Conquer depression.

Content this fear. Alone.

Even if I manage to get clean,

it wasn't last that long.

The demons are always there on my back.